The Third Day.

Even I’m surprised that I am still jumping out of bed when my alarm goes off. Not only I am happy to do so, but I also am eager to fill my day.

Today is the first day of the 50-day confidence challenge.

This challenge is doing one small thing a day to build your confidence in yourself.
Today’s challenge is to take a cold shower. Okayyyyyyyy. I have never been brave enough to take cold showers, though I know they are beneficial for you. I tell myself “I’m going to do this, it’s going to be fun. It can’t be that bad.” Read More »

The First Day

March 4th 2019.

After watching the video of the 5-second rule, I felt energised and put things into action.

  • I exercised, only for 10 minutes but I did it, and I felt great.
  • I started writing again. I have always loved writing. But in my constant self-loathing, I stopped because my self-pity overwhelmed me. My writing was the start of this journal.
  • I got a job! Oh yes, I did.

Read More »

35 Days to Change My Life.

I have been thinking a lot about my life recently. How different it is, and how different I am. I miss the old me. The risk taker, the lover of life, the girl that did everything she wanted to do. The girl that worked hard and loved to do so.

My life used to be exciting, fun and fulfilled. Now I look at it and think “What the fluff happened?” I am now full of self-doubt, fear and self-loathing. My life does not seem to have panned out how I thought it would. I blame no one at all and never have except for myself. Read More »

Why Letting Goes is The Secret Ingredient to Happiness.

The pain won’t go away in your chest. You have a gut-wrenching pull in your stomach. You are full of negative feelings, and they will not go away.

You blame yourself asking “What if I had said something different?” “What if I had done something different?” Or you are pointing the finger at someone else and playing the victim. “It is because of them, that I feel like this.”  Read More »