What I Wish I’d Known Before Becoming a Mother.

I Never Wanted to be a Mother.

I saw motherhood as a restriction. In a cage like a bird, trapped. People asked ”Why don’t you have children?” It wasn’t good enough to say ‘‘I don’t want any.” Their faces changed to an expression of confusion. So my explanations would have to be more in-depth. I had loads of reasons why I didn’t want children. I loved my freedom, and I travelled when I wanted to. All my money was my own, and I worked hard. Read More »

I Removed the Devices that Stole my Child.

I have to be honest about something. Something I knew deep down but did not want to admit. It was easier for me at the time to ignore it. Ignoring it meant I didn’t have to wake the beast. I could stay in a waking sleep. Having the occasional deep pull from inside that as a parent, “I can do better.” I should be acknowledging what I know instead of turning a blind eye. It is now affecting the relationships in the family.Read More »